47 - A God, Shining

Lin

I'm in a very good mood today.

I'm going to try and write a few chapters of my Christmas novel today.

I actually have quite a bit of the plot laid out, so if I can get it properly typed out, I should be able to get it done for the end of the month.

Wow. I'm basically doing NaNoWriMo, but in December.

Writing is a field that I genuinely shine in. The voldys had always discouraged me from following it despite me being better at it than voldy jnr because it was the path that she wanted to walk.

That was, after the time she wanted to be part of the ATC, before injuring her knee through the hereditary injury curse.

At this point, it's ironic. There seems to be a huge pattern at play with the injuries, too.

Three generations one after the other got it, in each of the second children, who all got the injury in their right knees.

I already don't believe in coincidences as it is, but that one kind of takes the cake.

I wonder if all of the abuse stemmed from mass senses of jealousy from each family member because I had mass amounts of things they didn't have without even trying? Because I'd love to know.

Voldy jnr and mrs voldy are easy - my body and my talents. Mr voldy, not so much. My powers are a possibility, and perhaps talents too. I can say one thing though.

They were all jealous that I am a God.

It explains them not wanting me to be special in anything - because as far as they were concerned, I shouldn't have anything else except my godliness.

They saw my appetite for experience and skills as greed.

They seemed to honestly think that it was enough for me to be pretty.

They didn't particularly like the idea of me working either.

They sure loved to limit me. And because of that, after a while, I almost gave up.

Almost.

Anyone who knows me knows that I'm not one for giving up easily. I'm the sort who never stays down, no matter what happens.

I am the nail that never gets hammered down.

I managed to cancel yet another in person appointment with my work coach, but I will be on the phone with him today.

I decided that whilst I have this flu, I'll do my best not to spread it, nor go out if I don't feel ready to.

I may or may not tell him about the Christmas novel, and the epiphany I had yesterday.

It will be fun to talk to him. I haven't done in a while.

As I think this, a small silver pendant of a four pointed star appears on my nemeton.

Inanna?

No.

Hesperos.

Hi kiddo.

Hesperos is known mainly for being the evening star, and the father of the Hesperides by one of the Moirai. At least, by my knowledge of the family tree, anyway.

They really wanted us to believe they were Atlas' kids. He'd be rolling away in his sleep if he could hear this nonsense right now.

You rarely visit me, if ever. What brings you here?

My daughters came here yesterday. I know about the rebellion, and I wanted to give you my support.

Thank you so much. 

Of course, you're my cousin.

Do you need anything?

Just my place being a God of the evening star and of love will do. Being a guide is my job, after all.

When we defeat Rickmansworth, you'll get your post back.

I put a small silver lightning bolt pendant on the offering altar, and it asports.

Sweet. You take care of yourself now.

Same to you, dude.

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