83 - A God, Loving

Lin

Today, I feel a lot better.

I managed to speak to a few people on the Mind forum, and it's made me feel a lot better than I did.

I've been able to eat a lot better today, too.

I actually managed to oven bake the lasagne that I got today, which is honestly an achievement on my part.

With regards to my body, I feel a lot safer, and a lot more energetic in it than I have in a while.

I've also been seeing lots of signs from my spirit guides lately. They seem to be everywhere.

Mannanán said that he was going to stay for an extended period at the nemeton after my mental breakdown last night.

He seems to understand my need for sociability and company, which is always good.

As for Athena, she's taking a flight from Apollo to Greece tonight.

She didn't want to go, but it's past Twelfth Night, and she has a lot of work left to do which she can't do here.

Apparently Atlas has already gone home, so he'll be around to welcome Athena when she gets back.

Metis has also said that she'll visit again soon, so I have that to look forward to.

And me!

Hi, Vel!

Vel is one of the Albanian faeries that I got in touch with because of one of my previous clients.

Honestly, I'm so glad I got to meet you.

You're the sweetest.

Well then the truth is sweet this time around! :)

She's really been helping me, somehow. I just messaged her client about her results, and I'm certain that my spell worked well for her.

Her kids are so much better off thanks to you.

Well, I always like to make people's lives better.

It's true. I enjoy helping people. I also need to learn to enjoy helping myself.

Yes. Yes you do. 

But most of all, you need to learn to enjoy letting others help you, even if that makes you feel vulnerable.

She's right. Since I left the voldys, I often shunned help, for fear that it would make me seem less independent than I was. Yet as a result, I've been slowly destroying myself because I inadvertently burned bridges with people who were once my friends and support system by giving them stone cold silence.

That wasn't all your fault. Some of that was Covid.

True, but still. I became quieter, even though I'm far from being an introvert.

I know you're ok on your own sometimes.

But not all the time.

Exactly. That's why you've been trying to manifest more people, right?

Yeah. That's worked out pretty well for me.

I now have a load of people talking to me on the Mind forum, which is really nice.

They're good people.

They are.

And you'll get people more your speed soon. A higher vibration is coming for you, dude!

You think so?

I know so. Have faith in it.

I believe it. I believe you, and I believe in you.

Aww thanks! ^^

You take care of yourself now, yeah?

And you! I have some manifesting stuff left to do for you!

She speeds away, little wings fluttering faster than a hummingbird's.

Thank you, Vel.

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