87 - A God, Reactivated

Lin

I had a dream last night that confirmed my knowledge.

My powers reawakened.

The only problem was that when I did, my whole body went numb, and I felt like I couldn't control myself at all.

When I spoke to the rest of my system, it turned out that the reason for this was that I had internalised the idea that in order to regain my powers and be a God, I needed to die.

For the last year and a half, I've been dismantling a timeline in which that was true, and cutting the puppet strings rickmansworth tied to me to get the results he wanted. 

And now, it seems that some of the remaining programming has chosen to rear its ugly head, including stuff trying to tell me that I'm human because I'm not dead.

I have literally died eight times alone in this lifetime. I don't think death is the ingredient I need. It's the belief, and the trust in my power, that I need to learn.

I managed, somehow, to make it rain, and to cause lightning to flash in the sky, merely with intent. 

First, this happened with wind. Now, with rain. I know now - there's nothing I cannot do.

All I need right now is to have the right mindset to be open to my power, and the motivation to practise.

Because if I can do it in my dreams, I can do it in reality, too.

Aye, ye certainly can.

Mannanàn comes in holding a dish of what smells like tarragon chicken.

Ye hungry?

I smile.

Definitely.

He puts the dish down, and serves some onto a plate for me, alongside some roast potatoes.

Keep your nutrients up, alright? It helps with your powers.

I nod, tucking in. 

I'll keep on top of it.

Manny ruffles my hair.

Good lad. You'll be back to yerself in no time.

I almost feel teary as I continue to eat. The affection afforded to me by both Rhiannon and Manny over these past few days has been considerable, and I've felt a sense of warmth and community as a result.

You guys will stay, right?

Manny nods without hesitation.

Aye. We'll stay as long as you need.