199 - A God, Liminal

Lin

I'm now in the Peckwater centre.

Frankly, I have no clue how, or if, I'll get home - but I know that I don't want to.

Mental health centres at night are considerably more peaceful than at the house.

The only unpleasant thing I'm hearing right now is what sounds like someone coughing and spluttering, and even that doesn't compare to the sheer volume that the house can get to.

A mental health professional spoke to me, and it sounds like she'll help as much as she can.

So now my stay here is overnight.

Now it's almost 6am, and I have no idea how I'll cope today.

But I'm going to do my best to get what I need.

*********

I was discharged again.

Though it does seem that I was taken seriously this time.

Given that I didn't sleep whilst I was there, both Hypnos and Morpheos elected to stay with me until my headache goes.

And we'll help with moving as well.

Morpheos gently pats my shoulder, and I find myself drifting off again.

Sleep well, Tavi.

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