232 - A God, Continues

Lin

It seems that an old ghost decided to appear in our midst.

Given who I insult the most here, I'm sure you can guess who it is.

No matter. My family are on it.

They've unloaded on him the banishing of his life.

Enduring yet another hot flush, I sigh.

Here I was, thinking I'd moved on, and that I would be ok. Apparently not.

Other than that, today has been wonderful.

Restful, yet wonderful all the same.

Terrence holds me in his arms, comforting me yet again.

Frankly, I count myself as the luckiest being in existence to be his wife.

We washed ourselves clean of those scum last night, before having yet another round of amazing love. 

Despite how high maintenance I am, he's always happy to help look after me, even if it's just keeping me company.

You are literally my wife. Why wouldn't I?

He snuggles into me, and I smile.

I'm anxious.

I know, lovely. I'm not going anywhere, alright?

My eyes water, and that quickly turns into fully fledged sobbing.

Hey...

I hate him! And how he thinks he has the right to swan in and out of my territory, my house and my life!

I know, lovely...

He hurt me, Cecilia, Gabi and Sorsay.

Terrence gently grips my upper arms, looking into my eyes.

Yes, lovely. And he's paying for it. 

We're making him leave, alright?

I nod, letting him wrap his arms around me as he murmurs into my hair.

Whilst that's happening, I'm staying right here, mat eo din?

Mat eo din.

Aventana walks in, holding a pair of steaming bowls.

For when you're both ready.

In them sits Brezhoneg seafood stew. Yet again, I feel myself on the brink of tears, and she ruffles my hair.

Worry not, ma kared. He is dead, and that is all that matters.

As she leaves, she winks at me, and I breathe a sigh of relief.

Do you think I'll move out soon?

Terrence nods, stroking my head.

Ya. You will, soon enough. Have faith in it, lovely. It's happening.

And soon, I'll get to meet you. Again, of course.

I feel all of my anxiety suddenly melt away, as though a great load has been taken off of my shoulders. Sniffing the air, I realise that both in system, here and physically, incense is burning.

Amber and Patchouli...

Terrence nods.

I figured that would calm you down.

I grin.

You know me so well.

He raises an eyebrow.

Of course I do. I keep a close eye on you, same as you do for me. Because we love each other. And that's what you deserve. To love...

He kisses a trail from my forehead down to my lips, smiling as he goes.

And to be loved.

Trugarez.

For what?

For loving me for as long as you have.

I couldn't have loved anyone else for this long, you realise that, right?

Besides, I don't think there's anyone else I'd want to love anyway. At least, I can't think of anyone.

Smiling, I cuddle up to him further.

Karout a ran ac'hanout. And I'll love you for as long as I exist, too.

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