46 - A God, Mobilising
Lin I came to a serious realisation in the social yet unsociable hours I've become accustomed to. It may bring some hilarity to you, but admittedly, I seem to have quite a lot of my most important epiphanies in the bathroom. I suppose it's a place of contemplation. I've noticed that a lot of my talk about what I can and can't do has been very much based around what the voldys told me I could and couldn't do, and around disability and illness. This whole time, I've been trying to find an ailment, a list of burdens to carry to validate my need for support, social interaction and my needs as a whole. And whilst I do have problems that need fixing, the problems I'm searching for and finding in myself are the direct opposite of what I actually believe and want to believe about myself. I did not leave only to wallow in 'not being able to do anything' once I got out. Especially for myself. All of that negative talk about myself and how I wasn't able, ho...